do you love me?
do you love me?
2020-12-09 01:23:20 +0000 UTC View Post
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it’s the look in your eyes, that’s how I knew you liked me
it’s the look in your eyes, that’s how I knew you liked me
2020-12-08 23:17:23 +0000 UTC View Postvelvet skirts and velvet wedges ✨💫
velvet skirts and velvet wedges ✨💫
2020-12-08 22:16:33 +0000 UTC View Postyou’ll have to let me know which outfit is your fav :)
you’ll have to let me know which outfit is your fav :)
2020-12-08 20:14:45 +0000 UTC View Postgearin up for workout wednesday! $1 = 1 vote! naked goal -..
gearin up for workout wednesday! $1 = 1 vote! naked goal - 189 instant win and extra fyeo content - 250 day off instead - 700
2020-12-08 18:06:40 +0000 UTC View Postthanks to everyone who voted today! 80’s vibes won! time to..
thanks to everyone who voted today! 80’s vibes won! time to get to WORK :)
2020-12-08 17:53:37 +0000 UTC View Postnow, where were we? today’s full meditation practice: help..
now, where were we? today’s full meditation practice: helping you through change. in your dms ♡
2020-12-07 19:07:08 +0000 UTC View Postgearin up for member's choice day tomorrow! vote below :)
gearin up for member's choice day tomorrow! vote below :)
2020-12-07 17:08:01 +0000 UTC View Postgoodnight! thanks for a fantastic first week back! remembe..
goodnight! thanks for a fantastic first week back! remember, tomorrow is no screens monday for me! but I've queued meditation Monday so you'll see some posts still talk to you tuesday bbs!
2020-12-07 04:33:38 +0000 UTC View Posti also like to remind you of everything I have to offer on m..
i also like to remind you of everything I have to offer on my page! scroll through and let me know if you have any questions
2020-12-07 01:04:43 +0000 UTC View Posteach sunday I like to learn more about you! how are you li..
each sunday I like to learn more about you! how are you liking my feed? anything you want to see more of? anything less? shoot me a dm or comment below!
2020-12-06 23:06:51 +0000 UTC View Postworking on audio recordings today for mediation monday! if..
working on audio recordings today for mediation monday! if you wanted to order something, now is your chance! scroll for the menu ✨
2020-12-06 21:06:08 +0000 UTC View PostI took a really spicy set to match last night’s drop. it’s..
I took a really spicy set to match last night’s drop. it’s in ya dms bb 🌞 ps: can you spot loaf?
2020-12-06 19:04:23 +0000 UTC View PostALSO HOLY FUCKING SHIT LAST NIGHT’S VIDEO WAS SUCHA SUCCESS!..
ALSO HOLY FUCKING SHIT LAST NIGHT’S VIDEO WAS SUCHA SUCCESS! Thank you thank you thank youuuuu! What a way to wake up ♥️♥️♥️♥️
2020-12-06 17:34:45 +0000 UTC View Postgood (afternoon) lol who else is having a lazy Sunday??
good (afternoon) lol who else is having a lazy Sunday??
2020-12-06 17:33:21 +0000 UTC View Postit's out! check your dms ♥ happy Saturday cuties :) let me..
it's out! check your dms ♥ happy Saturday cuties :) let me know your thoughts on the video!
2020-12-06 02:04:07 +0000 UTC View Postcheck your dms in exactly one hour for my new video release...
check your dms in exactly one hour for my new video release. (( I'm not nervous you're nervous ))
2020-12-06 01:05:12 +0000 UTC View Posttwo hours left! who is with me?
two hours left! who is with me?
2020-12-06 00:05:56 +0000 UTC View Postthree hours left. thoughts so far?
three hours left. thoughts so far?
2020-12-05 23:08:20 +0000 UTC View Post
you know the video is about to be fire when it turns out bet..
you know the video is about to be fire when it turns out better than what you pictured it to be in your head :D 9 pm tonight!
2020-12-05 20:13:36 +0000 UTC View Postso ummmmmmm who is ready for my new video release? 🤭
so ummmmmmm who is ready for my new video release? 🤭
2020-12-05 19:10:10 +0000 UTC View Postgood morning! and happy spicy saturday! can you guess today'..
good morning! and happy spicy saturday! can you guess today's focus? :D
2020-12-05 14:28:56 +0000 UTC View PostI had so much fun today! thanks to everyone who made it out ..
I had so much fun today! thanks to everyone who made it out 💫 which photo is your fav?
2020-12-05 02:40:53 +0000 UTC View PostIt’s Christmas season! One of my favorite holidays simply be..
It’s Christmas season! One of my favorite holidays simply because it fulfills my top love language - gift giving and receiving. Gifts are how I share my love with my family and friends. It's also how I receive love. Receiving a gift from a person is so much more to me than just the item. It takes time to pick out the right gift to send someone. It takes a certain amount of care to go through a list and decide what will make me the happiest. Often times, gifts are a means of taking care of someone too. Nothing turns me on more than being taken care of, than knowing there is someone out there who went out of their way to make me smile by gifting me something I've wanted. Each item on this list is on my list for a reason. If you click on each item, it has a description of what the item is and what meaning it will bring to my life. since I’ll be spending Christmas alone this year, it would mean so much to me if you could be a part of my holiday. grab some hot cocoa and bring your ugliest Christmas sweater - I’ll be opening gifts on the 23rd! Here’s my wishlist: https://marigoldgift.com/zetabb/christmasbb https://marigoldgift.com/zetabb/christmasbb https://marigoldgift.com/zetabb/christmasbb
2020-12-04 23:08:11 +0000 UTC View PostSo we’ve covered both nutrition and personal Time for a fun..
So we’ve covered both nutrition and personal Time for a fun fact about SEX! I saw this tweet the other day that resonated so severely with me that I printed it out and pinned it to my wall. It read, “intimacy begins when performance ends.” I know that I’m not the only cam girl, model, girl, HUMAN to place performance over intimacy. Toxic masculinity teaches us to look for sexual validation as opposed to the validation of the self through genuine love. I know that I fell into the performance side of this job far too quickly. It wasn’t until recently did start to make the shift. My most recent spicy content was my attempt at genuinely sitting back and enjoying the experience opposed to trying to perform for someone else. (DM me and I can send you the previews!) These videos are, undoubtedly, my best work yet but it’s hard to stay aware enough, all the time, to know when you’re performing vs when you’re not. It takes practice. And no wonder we are like this! We’ve been raised on Cosmopolitan, mainstream porn, and movies. No wonder we have no idea how to take in intimacy. I can’t even imagine what it must be like for men. If you wanted to share your experience with “performing” over “intimacy” I’d love love LOVE to hear your experiences. Dm me or comment, I’m all ears. So I encourage you, the next time you have sex/the next time you make a video for someone else/the next time you pleasure yourself alone, to be more in tune with your body. What does it want to do vs what are you doing? Don’t worry about riding them like how you saw in porn. Ride that dick CUZ IT FEELS GOOD THIS WAY. Chances are, he will love to see you in that much pleasure. Don’t worry about moving her body the way you read online. Respond to her pleasures as she responds to yours. It’s more flow-y when you’re focused on your own pleasure through their pleasure. The more intimate the experience, the more your body (and soul) will be transformed into that blissful state of love and intimacy. Which, in turn, makes sex so much more enjoyable.
2020-12-04 21:09:18 +0000 UTC View PostWhat Jordan Peterson got all wrong (( And how I did too. )) ..
What Jordan Peterson got all wrong (( And how I did too. )) I got my notes back from the psyotropic therapy session last night. My therapist recorded everything I said while I was under the influence so that I didnt have to worry about the lapse in memory that MDMA causes. Two passages stood out the most to me. I’ll share on with you today. My guide: “how does it serve you to blame yourself?” Me: “These things (a neglectful childhood, falling in love with an abusive partner, GDP) feel out of control, but I feel like I can regain control if I take some responsibility. It gives me the illusion of control. But it doesn’t actually serve me because I am just so sick. I followed Jordan Peterson’s work for a really long time. He preaches to own up to the bad in your life. You had the choice. You made the choice for a reason. It’s going to get you on the right path eventually. I remember I started to follow him because I was just so sick of circling in these TERRIBLE depressive episodes, falling for the wrong people both friends and lovers, and not feeling like I had control over my actions. Jordan’s words made me feel like I had control again. So I held onto any and all responsibility. I did this for years. Years and years and years. Thats A LOT of responsibility for a teenage girl to carry around. That’s a lot of weight. And that weight made me sick over time. Emotional weight is so damaging and while i knew this to be true, I didn’t FEEL it until I was in NYC. And, my hot take for the day is….Jordan is so sick because he has been carrying all of this emotional pain/hurt in his body and its making his cells break down over and over again. As for me, I was never unloveable, my parents just didnt have time for me. It was not my fault I was coerced. GDP CHOSE to do that to me. They put money > all else, even human lives. It’s not my fault my ex was abusive, he CHOSE to do that to me. & I stayed because ‘we give others what we wish for ourselves.’ - my guide. Letting these three things slide off my chest during the session has made me feel WEIGHTLESS. I’m laughing more, even alone. I’m dancing more, even alone! I just feel more alive now that I’m not walking around thinking I’m the demon. I think, taking responsibility for your past means losing grip that it was all under your control. It also means taking responsibility for how you respond. It’s also your responsibility to know where your triggers are coming from and lemme tell ya it’s hard work but when you figure it out, it makes so much sense. For example, overworking myself as a means to never sit alone in silence stems from my fear of being alone because after the video dropped in my hometown, I was ostracized to the extent where I spent my entire senior year alone in my room. My body uses work/self help/school/concerts/ANYTHING to never get put back into such a state of isolation because the only experience I have with isolation is this really terrible one. The trauma of developing alone in my room without any support was enough for my body to do whatever it possibly can to never, EVER be stuck in that state again. Knowing where that triggers stems from is my body trying to protect itself. So I’ve been dipping my toes in being alone. Truly alone. Doing nothing but existing. And it’s not so bad. I just have to train my body and reassure it that it won’t ever have to go through what it went through in high school. And that just being is beautiful. I can exist while having immense support (you guys are the best), amazing friends, and a healing heart. They can all co-exist. My body didnt know that before <3 But yeah, it makes sense you know? It makes complete sense why I overwork myself. It make sense why being alone is so hard for me. Now, I embrace it because I understand it. Basically, it’s not your responsibility to carry around so much pain forever to prove a point. You can let it go. What have you been carrying around for decades that isn’t serving you anymore? And that’s my Zed Talk for today, thanks for stopping in <3
2020-12-04 18:05:43 +0000 UTC View PostGooooood morning! Fun fact number one coming in HOT! (fuck i..
Gooooood morning! Fun fact number one coming in HOT! (fuck i missed these) I’ve been on a vitamin e kick lately and here’s why - complete with studies for everyone who can’t let go of their fish oil pills from my words alone :D The common person would classify omega-3s as "healthy fats", omega-6s as "bad fats" and saturated fat as something to avoid or limit. The reality is the exact opposite! Unsaturated fats are long chains with multiple double bonds that don't contain as many hydrogen atoms as saturated fats. What does this mean in English? They are more prone to oxidation, especially inside the body! It doesn't matter how preserved an omega-3 is when it gets inside a body full of heat, oxygen, and iron! It's called ✨ lipid peroxidation ✨ folks! The chain reaction creates cancer-causing by-products such as acrolein and causes: • Cancer •Diabetes • Heart disease • Heart attacks • Non-alcoholic fatty liver disease • Aging • Depression • Anxiety • Fatigue • Alzheimer's disease • Dementia • Skin conditions • Autoimmune disorders It is the unspoken poison because it is a multi-billion dollar industry! In order of worst to best: highly unsaturated fatty acids (omega-3s) -> polyunsaturated fatty acids (omega-3s and 6s) -> monounsaturated fat (olives, avocado) -> saturated fat -> cholesterol We have been taught to fear animal fats and praise the fats in nuts, seeds, grains, legumes and soy. The fact is that these foods are cheap to produce and do not support human health, let alone a growing baby! The fats inside them, when consumed without the hydrogen-rich fats found in animal foods, cause and exacerbate every disease known to man! DOES THIS NOT JUST MAKE YOU WANT TO THROW UP? So here's how I've been learning to detox these unnatural amounts of polyunsaturated fats in my diet. ✨ I've replaces any and ALL oils with saturated fats (ghee & beef tallow) ✨ I consume vitamin e once a day! I love Thorne's brand, I trust them the most right now. (ps: I have a bottle on my xmas list teehe https://marigoldgift.com/zetabb/christmasbb) ✨ i eat CARBS! consistently! ✨ i eat animal protein every single day. ✨ and I'm doing everything in my power to lower all types of stress (hence the psychotropic therapy) The liver needs glycogen (CARBS) to detox PUFAs and the body needs vitamin E because PUFAs create a vitamin E deficiency. We have been consuming them in large amounts our entire lives! studies for those who don't believe meeeeeeeeee <3 https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/10804454/ https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/26291567/ https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/1763554/ https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/8667240/ https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5319403/
2020-12-04 14:48:03 +0000 UTC View Post