Hope you all have a wonderful week ๐ Iโm curious about your thoughts on a more positive Nastya who buries the anxiety from here and tones down the long winded depressing posts and annihilates the feels?
Iโm doing the best I can with what Iโve got. Ngl itโs been a rough time on my OF this month. Iโve lost a lot of subscribers, those who used to be very into me suddenly lost interest, engagement is very low, and the requests are few and far between, which makes me internalize failure. I know itโs a rough time for us all. So idk for those of you who are still here and actively engage with my posts, talk to me, tip me, and buy my content, I just want to say thank you from my heart, it truly means a lot and I am so grateful for everyone here ๐ธ
Hereโs a liiittle preview cause I need to tease, Iโll post full sets during these weekdays ;) Tip what you like if you think these butts are cute and youโre excited to see some cute petite alt girl on girl action ๐๐ค
A visual commentary on climate change, or just a horny nature nymph(o)? ๐ฟ Horny reminder that liking my posts is *Free* and makes me feel nice, so if you see this post I hope you like it ๐๐ฟ
Do you think Iโm naughty by nature, or a precious flower who stumbled into a forbidden garden?
Selfies of peace, love, nudes, and kitten ๐๐ฆฆ๐ Ok I know this a porn page but ๐ฅธ Whatโs happening with Russia and Ukraine is so fucked up. Itโs disgusting โ personally itโs painful for me to watch, as a Russian-born dual citizen, as my home country commits despicable acts for the sake of money and greed and economic fecklessness. As a planet we should be beyond war but yet all over the world it continues to be waged, and itโs disgusting to what ends the greed and egoic lust of making money and being an economic power can lead nations to do. Capitalism is a disease and it will truly kill us all one way or another.
Itโs invasion. Every global superpowerโฆ Russia into Ukraine. USA into the Middle East.
I watch both Russian and American news and there is brainwashing on both sides. We do not know the truth. The media is having a frenzy further villainizing Russia. God only knows how this will be solved but itโs a fucking shit show of smoke and mirrors. There is no โgood guysโ or โbad guysโ โ theyโre all an echelon of merciless, greedy pigs who canโt even really be called human.
Itโs like a game to these people; true idiocy is in power. And we wonder why there is so little hope for the planetโs future, for sustainability, for kindness. The good things done by the masses get eradicated by the evils done by those in power. Keep fighting the anti capitalist fight. Also fuck inflation.
It feels a bit like two years ago in 2020 early coronavirus surrealness, but replace global pandemic crisis with the possibility of global economic/warfare crisis fueled by fear and greed. Itโs all a form of psychological warfare, really. Life is but a psyop. What is next? Aliens?
2:22PM on 2/2/2022, Happy Twosday Tuesday ๐ค my second (2nd) of two (2) posts with new content on this day of high vibrational frequency. I made a stark black and white nude art film/sex tape. Tip $22 to see it itโs over 22 min๐ค
Swipe for a smaller 2:22 accompanying clip that I shot in my kitchen, bon appรฉtit
Honestly.... has my content been lackluster? Don't be afraid to tell me why, I want honest critique that would help me better myself and my page. This month has been the slowest for me since the August porn ban. I hope it picks up because watching the declining numbers sucks ass. Maybe because of my demotivation, depression, no one requesting anything, it all being a vicious cycle, I've felt bad about what I put up here -- it's like a tug of war between considering my creative side and people-pleasing generic porn. The rest of feb I will probably lean in to the slowness and not do much. I'm extremely grateful to those of you who *do* support me ๐
My tip menu is pinned to my profile if you want to request a service. I write about this in the parasocial exploration of Cyberhorny but .... ( if you missed it: https://onlyfans.com/241360171/nastyavalentine ) โจ People will sometimes say "yes queen take a break I'll still be here when you're back" but truthfully very few will actually remain. And I get it, I get why, when you're paying for something you want your money's worth. People also forget. It's easy to forget with so many life distractions. This can not be taken personally. I have to be objective about this when thinking about myself as a brand, a fantasy, an intentional object, instead of a person. I used to believe that my page offered value way beyond the $12 a month, and I still believe that, but I can't help sometimes tying my self worth to something as abstract and mediocre as an internet following. It's more complex when it's tied to my livelihood.
I wonder what would happen if I *do* take a week off. A month off. And make a comeback. Would it work? Would people still be interested? Or am I done, to do this and then forcibly retire?
This was a month/beginning of the year when I focused more on my irl life than my online content, and it's been amazing, but it also sucks hard to see the numbers always go down. Why is this happening? What can I do about this? The anxiety... You can't possibly imagine how disheartening it is. It's a new digital kind of sickness. I can't magically create more subscribers, make anyone happier, or pull new and original content out of my ass every single day, and yet I try, futile as it may be. It's only up to the people who want and choose to be here. I've reached a stage of acceptance of whatever happens to this account happens, I know that by the end of the year if my numbers continue to decline I will quit OF and pursue my art in other directions. Sometimes simply people just get tired of you without telling you why. If you unsubscribe, stop interacting with my content, or turn renew off, I have no problem with that, but I would like to know why.
And yeah if there is honest critique about how I could improve my page I will listen -- maybe not implement it overnight because Rome wasn't built in a day -- but I will think about it objectively.
Hi! Sorry no posts yesterday, had kind of a ๐ตโ๐ซ and spent the day outside instead of taking to the internet to air my grievances. It helped, I am ok ๐ค
Although I am not sure if I will work on new content this weekend, I will tend to my inner life and my psychological needs. I want to please you but I need to make sure Iโm in a good headspace to do so. Iโm not unhappy, there are many things to be grateful for, but I feel deeply wounded that I have this analysis paralysis from not being able to make art the way I used to. I donโt know how to proceed. I lost my โvisionโ and I feel like Iโm in a process of grief, like a true grieving where some part of me has died. I need like another ayahuasca ceremony and shamanic guidance or something. Once something dies you canโt make it live again. You canโt replace it. But you can move on, towards something new, a new dimension or iteration, without fear or restraint. Right now I feel stuck in this limbo between the past and the future but not exactly the present. Iโm not sure. Sometimes to clear my head Iโll just be offline. It gives me anxiety being away from my job, as a chronic overworker, and it sucks to lose people when Iโm offline, but there are things in life more important. I have to make peace of mind happen, and be kind to myself to the best of my ability, and prioritize that. Itโs such a weird headspace. This is also why I feel like my Cyberhorny project is important, not just to me but to others, to show that digital sex workers have a human side. Still itโs been hard to focus and to do my passion projects. How do I transcend this? How do I let go of this pressure I place on myself?
Thereโs some days when I need to just recuperate. Decompress. Instead of focusing on the negative thoughts, I try to actively do something to combat them, even if itโs something really small. The small things can be huge. You canโt put a restraint on taking care of yourself. Staying offline for a day, even for a few days, wonโt kill me, and I hope you are not disappointed with me if I skip a few days posting or am late in responding to a message.
Sounds so cheesy but we gotta do what we gotta do to stay sane.
What do you do to cope with chronic hardship and deep seated trauma? How do you heal?
๐ธ๐ค Here are my pretty nudes as compensation, Iโll be mad if these pics donโt make you hard!! ๐ก
Working on fixing my phone today ~ this is a scheduled post! If I am offline and not responding, just be patient and I shall get back to you soon. Sorry about that, tech issues suck. Hope your Valentines day was lovely ๐
Your Ethereal submissive valentines doll ๐ Ahh, happy Nastya Valentineโs Day ๐๐น๐น๐ธ๐ Tis the day to celebrate my beautiful existence ๐๐ฅบ
When I do tip goals itโs for a real life necessity, like medical bill coverage or therapy funding, occasionally I will do some for art materials or sex toys that also benefit you since I get to use them while you watch ๐ but Iโll be honest this one is purely for me, I wonder if you think I deserve to treat myself to a valentines shopping for โniceโ lingerie like Honey Birdette or to my personal wardrobe ๐ ๐
Yes I am using this for personal gain, exploiting the garish pseudoholiday to earn a treat. Do you think Iโve been a good OF creator? I think Iโve worked psychotically hard to drive an output of creative quality porn and done my best to carve a space for myself here + pave the way for weirder intellectual girls to show themselves so boldly, but that may be a bit of a ego moment ๐ I usually lack confidence and feel depressed and misunderstood and unworthy, but today I feel like a romantic angel and would like to be appreciated for my horny existence ๐น๐
Pardon the binge posting today, I canโt resist cause itโs my day haha + I may take time off tomorrow to fix my phone, I want you to have plenty to look at and cum to โฅ๏ธ ๐ฆ
If you think Iโve been doing a great job as a content creator and beautiful online slut, if Iโve made you cum or smile, send me a tip ๐ These numbers are kind of random so tip whatever you want but any tip over $20 will receive extra valentines content from me: two seven minute videos that beautifully total up to 2 vids / 14 mins xx ๐โฅ๏ธ๐
Thank you my angels ๐น๐ธ
Also, I think have perfected the pussy heart, non? What do you think of my horny decoration? ๐ค๐ค๐
Probably no one is online today cause of the super bowl game, I hope itโs fun! ๐ These pics are too cute not to post, yโall can Like them tomorrrow lol or if you see them today ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ
Hiiii :D I hope youโre as excited about new full length videos + extra content as I am ๐๐โจ๐น I made content from your favorites in the porn archetypes: girl next door whoโs innocent yet secretly slutty, dominatrix goddess who you must worship or else, and submissive plaything, existing only to serve you ๐ท
All the videos are around 15 mins in length. Contents include fuck machine, vibrator, full nudity, close up and pussy spread, and my very own wit and imagination haha as I get into these characters and headspaces ๐ It was really fun for me and I hope will be fun for you too โจ ๐
*Contributors shalt receive:
๐ค 25 - excerpts from all the videos like a slutty sample platter ๐๐คค
๐ค 42 - Dominant goddess with black hair (POV you are a postmates delivery driver who I seduce into being my plaything for the night and show you some surprises of my own) ๐
OR Submissive plaything gagged on the couch (so submissive and eager to be used, I barely talk in this video ๐ฅบ It does have a part where I talk to you directly how much I want you to use me, and what you can do to me and how you can pleasure yourself, kind of like a JOI)
~~~ choose your own adventure and specify which one! ๐๐ฅบ (if you want both, but none of the other stuff here, you can tip 75)
๐ค 69 - Girl next door who has been trying to get you to notice her since youโve moved into the building. Like hello I live next door ๐ I may not have the biggest breasts or perfect confidence, but Iโve gathered all my nerves to convince you to fuck me after you do me a favor ๐๐ and you fuck me real good in my denim skirt with no panties on
๐ค 100 - All of the above ! โจ
Tips 111 or higher will also receive a few extra full length videos ~~ huge amount of HD content, around an hour total !! ~~
You can also tip a small amount just for appreciation of what I do, and enjoyment of my work in these videos,
and every tip amount no matter how small or generous will get exclusive content from this set ๐ค๐ค cute aesthetic pillow humping* ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐
Ahh thank you so much. Funds will go towards vet bills, therapy, and maybe some personal sexpenses (I want a new โniceโ sex toy, one thatโs shaped like a rose and is supposed to give really mind blowing orgasms
I did a pet bills fund yesterday that absolutely bombed and nobody tipped (probably because I tried a different approach at discounting services instead of making new content, so I am sticking with creating unique and fuckin sexy videos for you). So I deleted it and made these! Not taking that failure personally, sometimes itโs hit and miss and itโs just life
I find that for some reason when I make a campaign for my vet bills it never does as well as literally anything else, and Iโm not sure why but have a loose theory itโs because you want to support *me* personally and not my pet family, and get pleasure for yourself. My pets are the world to me. But I get it. Itโs extraneous. So I am adding a sex toy to this drive, and if this campaign exceeds the goal I will post a full length video with a new toy! ๐๐น
Itโs simple really, you help me fund vital necessities in my life, and I give you orgasms and amazing content โจ
If you contribute, even a little, thank you so much from the bottom of my slutty heart
BOOP ๐ฅบ๐
11:11 on Feb 11 and 11 awesome videos โจ
What do you think of all these? These vids range from BTS previews/screen tests of the sex tapes, to random conversational video, to me with my kitten :)
Wow I was gonna film some content today but Iโm so destroyed by a massive headache. I will make some cute valentines stuff and any customs by the end of this weekend, sorry about the delay! Life gets in the way of my creativity sometimes, lately often ๐ but I would rather create in a good state of mind, rather than overexert myself. Cute casual pics of me and my kitten here tho ๐ซ Do you like my kitten-colored hair? I love the pastels but wanted to feel a slightly normal hair color if only for a little while ๐ฆญ๐ฆฆ
Just me disheveled and having a day. No energy for makeup, styling, set decoration. But soon! I have some cute new outfits :3 Tip if you want me to show my dressing room pics! Both sfw and nsfw ;)๐๐
Extraordinarily simple titty selfies + some Jojo screenshots ๐ ๐ฎ๐น ๐ I wish I had a big juicy pair of bouncy anime titties but these little ones will do for now, honestly I love my small ones! Small boobs are underrated, and also I feel like the one true way to rebel against society is to truly like yourself. There are billion-dollar industries that incite and monetize self hatred. It can be hard to truly like yourself but it starts with one (1) small titty. What do you think of my small boobs?
This is a Nastya Valentines Day tree!๐๐น๐โค๏ธ๐ If youโd like to treat me to some cute stuff for this oh so garish pseudoholiday, perhaps a facade of hallmark capitalism yet one with my beloved aesthetic ๐๐น๐๐, my wishlist is here ;) https://www.amazon.com/hz/wis…
PS. What are your favorite porn archetypes? Like the Jungian archetypes, but salacious