oh my god i am getting back home now and will be catching up on all the online stuff tomorrow ๐ gn say it back?
it was such a wonderful trip iโm so happy ๐ what a weird twilight zone parallel universe with a happier, not violently depressed version of nastya
Unwrap me ๐ I couldnโt decide which was my favorite so I posted them all ๐
My birthday tip goal is almost there ๐ฅบ https://onlyfans.com/223981872/nastyavalentine if this exceeds the goal Iโll post a sexy video this weekend and buy a new sex toy to show off to all contributors! ๐
My book cover and horny author pic ๐
There is nothing especially obnoxious in the sexual impulse. The human sexuality is just another and mostly innocuous dimension of our existence as embodied creatures of the corporeal flesh; sexuality, which in some measure has been given to us by evolution, is conducive to our well being without detracting from our intellectual propensities; it should be praised rather than feared -- the power of an impulse that can lift us to various high forms of happiness.
In the digital reality, it is given a new flesh. Long live the new flesh (cite Videodrome).
๐ โBookโ is a loose classification for this as well, Iโm thinking it will expand more into a multimedia project. Without a doubt, the written element is important and as the text states I GOT SHIT TO SAY, but it would be a detriment to my aesthetic ethos not to take it in a wider artistic direction. It doesnโt even have to be as grandiose as it sounds, at least not at first; most of my projects start small.
I think when I come back from my trip and decompress, and have less days at my day job, I'll be ACTUALLY posting the stuff I've been working on this year. This project has been in development in some way since February, and it's not like me to hold off on releasing content; my artistic style and methodology has changed a lot this year. I take more time with things. I used to record songs in one take and release albums spontaneously; the films I've made went through Sonic-speed amphetamine-like editing processes and media cycles. Last year, and this year, I've given more thought and dare I say maturity to my work. It's still unhinged as hell, but the chaos is more controlled instead of letting it take the wheel.
I used to deny my emotions completely or let the pendulum swing to the point where they consume me; therapy has helped me mediate my mental state (it's not perfect, it's a nonlinear journey, but I'm working on it and that's what matters -- in the bigger picture I've made a lot of personal progress this year).
Self-doubt has been the major factor crippling my ability to release things that I should be proud of. When did I lose my confidence? Iโm not really sure. The pendulum is swinging into the other direction and nowadays I feel like I give less of a fuck. If you donโt like me, I wonโt beg you to stay on my page. Ultimately Iโm the queen of my castle and youโre my guest. I love having you here and treat you with otherworldly delights with horny ends, ๐ฆ but you must respect my boundaries and my cyber home.
I used to always feel embarrassed every time I make a longform post here, because those long winded metaphysical emo essays always make me lose followers and income, but it's very important to me to get my thoughts out there. I operate a balance between slutty nudes/the sexual performance and cultural commentary/the meta analysis. Right brain, left brain, horny brain: the horny trinity.
What the fuck is CYBERHORNY and how does one navigate a sexual dystopia? You shall find out soon.
Oh swipe further ๐๐ค๐
Which of these bday outfits is your favorite: 1, 2, or 3?
1 is in high heels and mesh top; 2 is wrapped up like a pink present, 3 is my naked fat rolls coming out to say hi ๐ Iโll post more pics of the most popular one โจ
So fuckin awesomeโฆ Part 2 lol sorry for the bday spamming pics lol itโs just been a while since I had so much fun and actually enjoyed myself, and I want to share ๐น ๐ฃ โจ
2021-11-16 04:08:33 +0000 UTC View Post
Thank you so much for the birthday love, I had a fucking amazing weekend ๐ค ๐ซ My mind is blown and my heart is gonna explode lol.
Iโm out of town on a birthday trip, today through Wednesday so Iโll be online but less frequently. Enjoying my irl time, not ignoring anyone ๐
BTW those who contributed to the hotel fund that allowed me to book the trip:
( https://onlyfans.com/209055508/nastyavalentine )
will get exclusive pictures and videos from the hotel. Iโll send yโall photos of the room tonight as appreciation, and the stuff you tipped for as my trip goes on, or when I get back home and have more clarity to compile them! Itโs not too late to tip if anyone still wants to โญ๏ธ
Meanwhile, Iโve scheduled posts for the next three days so that you are not in lack of Nastya birthday week nudes!!
Ahhh, waking up and undressing into my birthday suit. There is no better time to simp for me than my birthday weekend ๐ฅฐ ๐ ๐ ๐ฌ leave me a little tip if you think Iโm cute and deserve to treated to something nice for my bday tomorrow <3 ๐
Also I hate when simp is used as a derogatory term, I LOVE SIMPS I LOVE SIMPING, I myself simp often and reject its position in our lexicon as a bad word. Simps rule and Nastya supporters are top tier ๐
since most of my posts drown in despair and negativity, i wanted to share something positive: i drank a green juice and it cured my depression ๐คโจ๐
jk. but starting the week i come back from my birthday trip, aka next week, iโm halving my days at my day job and will only work there two days, which will make the quitting segue easier for me. itโll be a loss of income but iโll have peace of mind and can focus on my OF, my art, my projects, my inner world, and be more available to make the content you want ๐
also, listening to lil peep in my tesla? not bad. rip tho, my emo boy crush and fellow scorpio he def died too soon :( ๐
whenever i think of a tragic end for nastya i think of peep and how he had so much life and beauty and art ahead of him and so much more music to make. i have so much art and love and beauty ahead of me and so much more music to make and an artistic legacy to build. iโm not done. iโm only getting started ๐๐๐ฅบ๐๐ง๐ปโโ๏ธ๐ค
PS. boobs
* pokes head out the door * are you guys over me or do you still think Iโm cute? I posted a little late night video but deleted it cause no one has been liking my stuff ๐ maybe these pics of me smiling naked for the camera can help convince you Iโm cute again ๐ฅบ
2021-11-12 13:23:53 +0000 UTC View PostInsomnia is a bitch ๐ช just cute little me struggling with all my cute little self-flagellating thoughts of failure and worthlessness all night long ๐ฅฐ the performative punishment of BDSM as a healthier outlet for pain and trauma. the agony and the ecstasy. how do you get your self confidence back after losing it so brutally?
Iโll make some videos based on the last survey results :) but for now this is what I have for you. show me some love if you enjoy seeing me all helpless like this โ
I'm feeling copious amounts of anxiety today for some reason. Besides medication, how do you cope with panic attacks? (yoga and meditation do not help me, years of experience trying diff things have not worked) ๐๐ I feel less sick than yesterday I think it was just a mild cold/immune system crashing as a response to stress, but I just feel stressed now. Not 100% better yet, but soon ๐Here meanwhile is a naked video of me reading Anais Nin's erotic essays
2021-11-11 17:59:26 +0000 UTC View Post
insert Lickitung pun here ๐
๐did you know I was a IRL Pokemon champion back in the day?
I used to play Pokemon competitively and win prizes, I was kind of like an OG Egirl/gamer girl before it was trendy (now it's sexy again, the pendulum swings towards nerds now, and I'm sexy too). ๐๐
๐ผ๐๐ฎ Iโve won a gold Pikachu Game Boy Color, a giant stuffed Jigglypuff, Mewtwo figurine, movie DVDs and game care decks, and tons of other cool merch. when I got into high school my parents tossed out my gamer stuff and I went through a long withdrawal.
I started gaming again after college, and I do so now for pleasure and entertainment rather than competition. (even when I competed, I mainly was there to have fun!)
Perhaps I infantilise myself a lot by engaging in this kawaii weeb aesthetic trying to relive one of the few positive experiences of my traumatic childhood. I fuckin love Pokรฉmon and I love gaming. Gaming is healing. Gaming for fun relaxes me and gives me pleasure. โจ Hope my gaming gives you pleasure too.
What games do yโall play? ๐พ
slutty affirmations of the day:
my cat loves me ๐
my small boobs are a gift to the world ๐ค
my existence brings joy even when I experience pain ๐
hypersexualized bimbopilled personas on the internet be like
the memeing of the minds ๐คฏ I become the face of my content, give a sense of humanity to the Product, cycling through humanizing and dehumanizing myself. I fall when it falls. the times that I flop are equally as important as the successes. one day Iโm like yeah Iโm trying to be more positive and less self effacing, and the nextโฆ back on my goofy bullshit and OnlyFans meta analysis nonsense ๐คช at which point do the realities blend?
interesting seeing the results of yesterdayโs survey. I have a lot of fun ideas about what to make next for you. what you see on this here lovely and horrible OF (Iโve once been called โworst OnlyFans everโ which is kind of iconic, I accept the title) only comprises a small part of my life; it may feel bigger because I chronically overshare. how many hours do you spend online everyday? itโs like an appendage to us now. I live on my phone, but I live away from it even more and I challenge myself by going small periods of time physically away from it. at first itโs scary and uncomfortable because weโre so used to our phones the way a baby is used to its mother
(โphone is mommyโ -Freud probably)
but it starts to feel more liberating. still some uncanny valley shit tho. I honest to god wish I lived in like a rural coastal village somewhere and I believe that in our lifetime the pendulum will swing back towards a culture of luddite values. we will either be so fully sucked into the digitization of humanity that we wonโt notice the singularity happening (is it happening now?), or our weak nervous systems will revolt and try to push back into a natural state of being despite โthisโ being the new natural
spending more time in the real world than the online world recently has been the best thing I can do for myself. learning how to split the difference. I rewatched Network last night and Iโd recommend it to everyone and anyone, that film was ahead of its time, weโre all biologically designed dopamine fiends. the triggers of going online and on social media; I donโt keep active social media, I have the bare minimum, because a major human ethos has lost its purity in a massive sea of nonsensical advertising. I resent it. I hypocritically participate in it, and every time I do, I make sure itโs crystal clear how fucked up I think our system is. I am dead, and yet I live. Iโm so horny for societal collapse, the fall of capitalism, and the end of advertising-based society ๐ด fuck this shit, I want to be a hunter gatherer again
No Nut November?
*NO* NOVEMBER!! ejaculating myself out this bitch lol
btw feel free to nut
good morning and I hope your Monday is off to a good start! ๐ sorry for being absent, for being negative and whiny. I send you these pics as an apology, press the like button on this post if you accept ๐ ๐ ๐๐
Iโm working on myself especially trying to โstay positiveโ itโs the hardest damn thing for me, how do you do it?what are your secrets? also what hair color should I do next! itโs kind of a light rainbow iridescent right now but I am thinking blue or pink for my bday? ๐
Le Scheduled Post ๐ :3
Sorry these arenโt nudes, just a ton of chill vibes and random selfiesโจ
Love these pics of me in my happy place at a cat cafe, as well as my irl cat cafe at home. Hope you donโt mind some wholesome sfw photos ๐ค ๐ What makes you happy in this fucked up demented life?
hi hi! my loves, my sweet perverted doves ๐Iโm sorry to do this two days in a row but today I am taking a personal day off to get organized and more well rested.
(yesterday I was also less active on here because of a double shift at my day job)
this week has taken a lot out of me. I covered extra shifts on top of doing this all day erryday. you know I take my OF seriously and I love connecting with you but sometimes Iโm too worn down to perform well or communicate well.
my priorities are high quality content, interactive communication, and artistic integrity. when I feel like ass, I do an ass job of those things - I do not want burning the candle at both ends to affect my integrity and health, or your quality of pleasure. I work several jobs and rarely take breaks so I need a little TLC Nastya personal time. not ignoring anyone, will be back tomorrow or even answering messages tonight if Iโm feeling better, sending love ๐
PS. my bday is next weekend and if there is anyone whoโd like to spoil & be spoiled back (i always send content with the item whether itโs sexual or wholesome), here is a link to my wishlist ๐
https://www.amazon.com/hz/wis…
(sorry if I sound solicitous or spammy, feel free to tell me to stfu. Iโm just excited cause itโs a big birthday. all purchases are optional! I love treating you to sexy private pics of lingerie you buy me and filming content in it; I also love wholesome practical stuff! if you get me a guitar pedal I will parasocially e-love u forever ๐ )
Iโve been working on a lot of music and writing, after a disgustingly long break of artistic burnout I sense the juices flowing again. In my free time I finally feel like myself again. Depression is a weird fucking thing that I donโt think will fully ever go away but Iโve been finding solace in my creativity and passion projects, as un-lucrative as they may be. I hope you, my sexy disciples, have something in your life that brings you joy, and transubstantiates pain into beauty just like Jesus alchemized water into cum I mean wine sorry I mean cum sorry I mean wow ok Iโll see myself out now
ok thatโs it! have a holy, slutty, sacrosanct Sunday and google bless ๐ ๐ โ๏ธ๐ Iโll post a few more annoying bday reminders this week lmao but mostly I try to keep my feed with pleasurable content for you. Thanks! ๐
PSSSSSSS. what do you think of these pics?
do I deserve to be treated like a goddess? what about *pounded* like one? โจ ๐ผ๐ป โจ
๐ธ๐ธ some videos for you: ๐ธ๐ธ
๐ธ vacuuming sexy maid
๐ธ a BTS from my iconic Twin Peaks sex tape
๐ธ full length bath video
๐ธ Russian JOI
๐ธ i have a long day at my shitty day job rn so take these videos as recompense for less activity. any tips help me quit and be full time on OF again! ๐ธ
hi ๐ฅฐ๐๐๐โจ๐ผ๐ป
trying to give you some positive vibes??? me like the biggest nihilist ever trying to give you some good vibes??? these videos both have some camera/light testing โจ very simple videos but Iโm trying to just chill and take it easy and make life as simple as possible. yโall must be sick of my long form existential shit so hereโs something aesthetic but not dark or emo
Sleeping Beauty ๐๐ฐ๐
*Stripping Beautyโฆ whilst watching Criminal Minds*? I love Princess Aurora because I always want to sleep ๐ I love Criminal Minds not only cause itโs so nice to zone out to it at the end of the day and i love crime dramas, but also cause I feel like itโs one of the most sex positive shows and views sex workers from an empathetic and understanding perspective which is rare for procedural shows - perhaps a fantasy in a world where much sex work is criminalized by the system and derided by many civilians. we have our own private lives and yet it seems impossible to picture an adult model doing normal person stuff
this is why i like onlyfans where i can let you in to some of my personality, while also doing the creative stuff that i love to perform. the bleedthrough of performativity x reality is fascinating to me (hence why i am writing/developing my horny thesis CYBERHORNY: NAVIGATING A SEXUAL DYSTOPIA)
sex workers can be kind and smart and funny and professional and amazing people (you subscribed for some reason, right?) but our depiction in the media is dehumanizing bc itโs such a โtabooโ topic. iโm desensitized to it but i have to be aware that many people are not. the unknown is scary. the unknown is easy to persecute in a carceral society. itโs comforting to me to watch a show thatโs nice to, and nonjudgmental of, ladies of the Horny ๐ฆ
anyway i hope you like this video ๐
what do you think of my *Sleeping Booty*? ๐ผ๐ป โจ
ton of my personal halloween pictures โฆ dressed as Princess Aurora ๐ lol also i HAD to get a picture with Jigsaw. ๐ฉ๐น ๐ช๐ค I originally thought to perform my lil halloween concert in the Saw mask but i want to give you guys boners not heart attacksโฆ ๐
BOOBA!!! ๐ฆญ iโm exhausted ๐ฅฑ ๐ช โฆbut still sexy (question mark ???) chronically tired gang u up?
๐ pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding ๐
send a tip if youโd like to see more videos like this! (iโll also message you something hot ๐ฅต๐)
pillow humping โฆ letโs see who likes it ๐คจ
indulge in my nonstop nudes november ๐
๐ค๐ค๐๐ค๐ค
listen to my audio message below. my hand hurt to type too much rn but i will get back to everyone i promise, donโt be mad lol here are some nudes ๐ not ignoring anyone iโm just busy and in pain. working at my day job again today ๐ i will be quitting in a month or so, when i give them my two week notice i will be so happy. have a nice hump day! do you like the audio messages?
November is awesome cause itโs my birthday month :3
โจNONSTOP NASTYA NOVEMBER โจ๐คฏ๐คฏ๐ฆ๐ฆ
please donโt resist the urge to nut to me this month
๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐โโฌ
I added three new tracks overnight:
๐https://nastyavalentine.bandcamp.com/album/this-is-my-hell-these-are-my-nudes ๐
I guess tip me if you like it or buy the album on there? I don't even care anymore honestly
give me one (1) good reason to live ๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช why am I alive? this is my hell
and these are my nudes
spicy content coming tomorrow, but I released a new album: ๐ https://nastyavalentine.bandcamp.com/album/this-is-my-hell-these-are-my-nudes ๐
wanna see a goth girl smile? swipe to the end ๐ค๐งก
what are your plans for Halloween and what will you dress up as, if anything?
POV youโre cuddling with me and my spotted seal ๐ฆญ
I am ready to take on another day minus the depressive weight of living in a world that is crumbling to its doom, leaving us distracted in an e-world of oversaturated information and insatiable horniness. out of all the digital ephemera youโre inundated with, Iโm glad you chose me as your media of choice in this moment. now come back to bed and run cuddle_simulation.exe ๐ฆญ
full video! the first BJ video i ever filmed ๐
also one of the first sex toy gifts iโve ever received. I always appreciate gifts and my wishlist is linked in profile if you enjoy gifting. this one was small but made my eyes water like a MF cause i hadnโt sucked cock, real or dildo, in over a year. honestly I prefer smaller/medium tho Iโm not a size queen. but the big dildos that youโve seen me take are a fun challenge. in any case practice makes perfect ;)
what did you think of it? super amateury and i was kinda shy and boring, no cosplay makeup or anything. if it sucks (lol) iโll delete and re post something else more interesting ๏ผโนโกโน๏ผโก
anyways i am super tired after a long ass day ๐ด thank you once more for bearing with me and have a lovely night ๐ ๐ด๐
โจ *may my dick sucking send u good vibes* โจ
tomorrow is another day
a trilogy ๐
question: would you still wanna see my cosplays and themed seasonal stuff after halloween? I'm kind of going thru a lot rn and idk if I will have time to squeeze in *Everything* that I want to show you in the next few days. I have a lot of sexy costumes I'd like to film and post, but without the time constraint. quality over quantity. I'll still post something cute and ๐ฅ for halloween tho ๐ค thank you for being patient with me