#throwbackthursday
The fall of 1998 is when I started working on my original amateur xxx page (as these things were called back then). I was on a very tight budget as I had used a whole month’s pay to buy my first digital camera. Memory cards were tiny then and I could only take 7 photos at a time with it. Even though my budget was just as small my instincts told me starting my personal porn site would be worth it. Financially, yes but more importantly in my personal growth journey.
One of things I enjoyed then and still do now is how making porn for me is both a sexual pursuit AND a creative one. Part of that is the role play. I get to take on a persona and explore different erotic fantasies. One of which (then and now) is the French Maid.
I’m not sure when I first thought a French Maid was sexy but quite possibly when in 1985 I saw the movie Clue and was introduced to Colleen Camp as Yvette. She was the epitome of the sexy French Maid with her hair up with delicate curls framing her beautiful face, her bosom nearly bursting from the bodice, and her ruffled skirt very, very short. The fact that she was also a call girl was not lost on me. She performed for her clients with Miss Scarlet as her madame and her French Maid was also an act for the guests. I loved this so much!
Back to my roleplaying as a French Maid. I have done it many times though with never with the movie Clue’s costuming style. That is a fantasy of mine. Until then I can look at photos like this one from my vintage vault and the fond memories I have of dressing up in pearls, kitten heels and a vintage apron I bought at a thrift store.
LET'S MAKE A CUSTOM VIDEO
During my first foray as a porn performer (1998-2010) I didn’t make custom videos. My reasoning was two-fold. First, I had a full plate as I already worked on my amateur xxx website full-time and I didn’t have the time and energy that a thoughtful custom video requires. Second, there wasn’t very good infrastructure available to me to upload and share the videos easily, much less manage the compensation.
Now things have changed. I’ve got the time and energy AND I’ve got the infrastructure!
WHAT I LOVE ABOUT CUSTOM VIDEOS
Custom videos let me create porn with someone specific in mind. I love this personalized mix of our erotic minds. This is especially the case given lockdowns and quarantine. It’s such a pleasure to have the opportunity to intimately have a sexual experience with someone else albeit virtually.
WHAT KINDS OF CUSTOM VIDEOS?
My specialities include jerk-off instruction, masturbation with authentic orgasms, and stripteases, as well as oral, foot, hand and natural bush fetishes.
I enjoy engaging in sensual erotic talk or downright dirty filthy talk and everything in between.
It’s my pleasure to take a Dominant or submissive role as I’m a switch by nature.
I’m open to age and power disparities if the characters are all 18-years and older.
I don’t engage in any scenarios related to race, religion, class or marginalized peoples. I also don't create anything that goes against the terms and conditions you agreed upon here at OnlyFans.
There is a non-negotiable extra fee for anal activities: fingering ($10), butt plugs ($12), and dildos $15.
HOW TO ORDER A CUSTOM VIDEO
To order your custom video please send me a message here at ONLY FANS with your request. If we agree on the concept and you send your payment as a TIP, I will create your custom video within and send it to you here at ONLY FANS.
This timing only applies if I don't need to purchase any clothing, accessories or have a specific manicure, pedicure or roleplay attire. If any of those are requested then timing of delivery will vary.
PRICING
Normally my rate is $10/minute with a minimum of 5-minutes required but for my ONLY FANS launch I’m offering a special of $8/minute with a 2 minute minimum!
If you would like your video to not be sold in my clip stores, the fee is $75 extra but for the month of January 2021 I will be waiving that fee! Just let me know in your request you'd like it to be exclusive to you.
So exciting!!
Open bras are such silly pieces of lingerie but they are also so sexy. Yes, I've discovered a love of trashy lingerie!
Before I began my porn comeback last Spring my lingerie collection was minimal. I have 2 sensible t-shirt bras and a week's worth of organic cotton thongs for my every day use. I also have 3 luxury bra and panty sets for when I wanted to feel fancy.
I knew I would soon run out of things to shoot in so I decided to use my meagre first porn pay cheque to purchase some cheap trashy lingerie. I was pleasantly surprised by my haul. As a minimalist I'm conflicted with my pleasure over a haul, but I digress.
The lingerie arrived in tiny bags as they were mostly elastic and ribbon with very little fabric coverage. It took a few tries to get my limbs in the right openings but once on and in place I found the result amazingly sexy.
The underwire framed my breasts beautifully. I am a C cup so my breasts don’t hang very much and without the cup my breasts still stood naturally on my chest.
I was delighted by how my breasts and nipples looked without the cup. It made me fantasize about how it would feel to have my nipples stimulated by fabric if I were to wear it with a silk blouse and move about on a typical day. Those would be some very hard nipples for everyone to see!
I think I need to purchase more open bras in various colours. Don't you?
PS This lingerie set also features tiny strappy crotchless underwear. I will share a photo next #muffmonday.
PPS This has been my first a #tittietuesday post for 2021.
#muffmonday
I used to shave my pubic hair. Not all of it, but most of it. I’d shave from my perineum, up and over my labia majora as well as my bikini line and thighs. I would leave a triangle of hair over my mons. I liked having hair there as a sort of frame— a frame for my beautiful snatch. I was told by fans of my group sex scenes that it helped them find me among the bodies in a girlpile. Everyone else was fully shaved. I wasn’t. So I shaved because if I’m anything, it's helpful.
I stopped my near-daily shaving routine when I stopped shooting porn. I let it grow in between planned partnered sexual experiences. Over a few years I shaved less and less for those. It meant some partners didn’t go down on me, but I wasn’t terribly bothered by that. It’s not that I think cunnilingus is overrated. I don’t. I love it. However, I need a lot of consistent stimulation for oral sex to get me anywhere close to orgasm. Few have been up to the task. But that’s a topic for another day.
As I let things be more natural, I noticed my moisture increased and my scent enhanced. My vagina was in a healthier state. It had such a sensual muskiness to it. I was captivated by how delicious I was.
I started to notice that my hand went more frequently to my bush in my private moments. I’d run my fingers through my hair and flashes of long forgotten memories came to me. I remembered the youthful times before I had ever shaved and the soothing experience I had late at night or very early in the morning as I played with my pubic hair.
I rediscovered the pleasure of stroking it and twirling it before making my way to my clitoris. I remembered what it was like to have a lush landscape and how forthcoming I was in my desire for touch and pleasure. I felt reborn sexually after so many years of being smooth, yet dry, irritated and physically vulnerable.
This past year I’ve been making solo porn featuring my natural muff. Some folks have requested that I shave like I used to but there is no going back. I tried once and it was horrible. My mature pussy needs her wetness and her plush protection for the hardcore action she craves.
Want to see a full photo gallery set of my beautiful hairy bush? Let me know in the comments.
Back in 2018 I took part in an Instagram posting challenge called the Sensual Selfie Challenge. Each day had a different theme led by a different influencer. Here is a little background about my Instagram and what I enjoyed about this challenge.
My Instagram account is mainly about my ageing, perimenopause and personal development journey (with some cat pics thrown in for the cuteness). When this challenge came up I was intrigued because I hadn’t shared any thirsty pics in many years. I was long retired from xxx as well as burlesque and client work. I still felt sexy and sensual but I wasn’t sharing it in a public way. I decided to dip my toe back into the sexy sharing pool.
In retrospect I think it was my psyche asking me what it would be like to be an adult model and porn performer once again, but with a different outlook on life and business of sex. Especially as a solo entrepreneur.
I had to see first what it felt like to pose, perform and ultimately process mentally and emotionally what it was like to have near-nude imagery of myself available to my public. I had to experience what it was to be both the subject and photographer for such a personal and intimate project. I had to discover if I was comfortable and even more importantly inspired to do and show more.
I was.
In 2020 I wasn't moving nearly as much as I’m used to. I decided to change that but needed a bit of inspiration. So I Googled why stretching is good for sex. I learned that sex uses a lot of muscles you don’t normally use throughout the day and stretching will help prevent painful tightness and cramping from awkward positions.
During my solo sex photo and video shoots I definitely get into some awkward positions to get the best angles. I’ve mainly powered through it but I want to improve the quality of masturbation AND content efforts. I think a stretching routine will get my creative and sexy juices flowing.
Recommended stretches: standing toe touches, knee drops, butterfly, and side split.
“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language and next year’s words await another voice.” -T.S. Eliot
In 2021 I'll be sharing with you my "voice" as I continue my exploration of sensuality, intimacy and pleasure. Sometimes it’ll be a whisper. Sometimes it’ll be a moan. Sometimes it’ll be a coy glimpse. Sometimes it’ll be a deep set stare. Whatever it’ll be, at its foundation is my authenticity and curiosity as I seek to connect my erotic mind with yours.
I've been documenting and sharing my life's journey in various online spaces for over two decades. I’m fascinated by sex across the life-span. I always have been. But as a woman turning 50 this year the fascination has intensified.
I’m in a special time of life filled with many body changes as well as a new found sense of self and wisdom. I find it terribly exciting as well as mysterious as sex and ageing aren’t openly discussed. It isn’t seen as sexy. That’s only for the 21-year-olds.
Well, that is not what my heart, mind and body are telling me. Yes, I’m in a new life phase but it has its pleasures and passions. I want to explore them together with you.
Always,
Seska
Hello friends, old and new.
I'm working on a new FREE version of my Only Fans. A little something to give you a glimpse at my MATURE XXX adventures. Stay tuned!
Seska
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