I fingered myself this morning. I was successful in finishin..

I fingered myself this morning. I was successful in finishing the job. It was a decent orgasm, but I’ll admit it. It was kind of a bit painful. I guess the tensing up riled things up a bit. So, I’ll try again tomorrow and see how that works out.

Don’t read this if you don’t want to fall asleep. I have warned you.

Went to sit with a few content creators wanting to do girl-girl with me last night. I said no. I got the look of death from both of them. It got super awkward from there. They got up to leave, and the bill wasn’t paid. I reminded them of that. One of them through $40 down and left. Their portion of the bill was only $21. The waitress got a good tip. Honestly, I’m picky about my women. I’m too old to be banging chubby chicks for “content.” Most importantly, I don’t work with “gay for pay” women. They were admittedly just that. I hate that shit. I asked them if they had ever spent time fucking each other off camera, and they said no, that they weren’t gay and they both had boyfriends. If they haven’t spent time in another woman's bed for no other reason than they were totally into the other chick, then, in my opinion, they have no reason to be doing girl-girl porn. I lived with another girl as a couple for 3 months 20 years ago before being a lesbian was cool. She ended up being nuts but these things happen. I can count a total of five women I have lived as a couple with during my lifetime. Maybe that’s why gay-for-pay with women bothers me.

I thought about finding a hot gay chick and making a porn series. The thing is, for guys, actual gay women having realistic lesbian sex isn’t all that visually exciting. Girl-on-girl porn is typically vastly unrealistic but is geared up to solve the visually unexciting problem. In most of my lesbian relationships, there has been a lot of getting fingered and use of vibrating toys. And yes, we tasted each other often. I can’t remember ever using a strap-on. Why would we? If we wanted a dick in us, we would get a guy and let him slip it in. And sometimes, with a couple of the girls, we did. But the point of this long-winded explanation is that we were actually very much into each other as partners/lovers. As in actual feelings. Why am I not with a hot MILF right now, you ask? The big issue is I like dick in a big way. I always gravitate back to it. Be it big or small, I need dick. Not fake plastic dicks attached to a crappy harness that does weird things and falls apart constantly. Guys happen to have real dicks. So, I pretty much gave up on women for that reason. Plus, guys are much easier to get along with. I’ll leave it at that.

My next reason is simply this, and this will rile a few of you. I don’t like chubby, out-of-shape women as sexual partners. Call me whatever woke version of an awful person I may fit into, but it is what it is. Worse yet, I don’t really care about body appearance in men, so I’m not an equal-opportunity body discriminator. David’s belly probably gets in the way of him being able to see his dick, even as big as his cock is. I quit noticing his expansive wasteline the second he made me laugh. Rob and Ryan are both in phenomenal shape. I’d fuck David over either one 7 days a week, 24/7. Women don’t have that luxury with me, especially if they are gay-for-pay content creators. Why did I go to meat with them? They looked good in their pics. Even their obviously over-edited IG videos looked good. But up close and in person…not so much. I want to get some girl-on-girl stuff, but I have to be into the chicks I’m about to stick my tongue into. If I’m going to fuck someone without a dick, they need to be somewhat fit and trim. I don’t even care so much about looks. Suppose a woman has a good body but isn’t typecast into the norm of what is considered attractive. Who gives a shit about how her face looks. It's not her face I want to lick, and I can’t see her face when she’s licking me. I don’t have much of a facial attraction to people anyway. Guys included. Body is my first notice, personality is second, then maybe I look at the face as a factor, but even then, not much weight is given to that. More guys have pumped sperm into me simply because I like them as a person. It wasn’t looks, it wasn’t pick-up lines, it was just being able to hold a conversation with me. Neither of these two women was much in the department of conversation, so that didn’t help either. The end. Sorry for boring you. I’m basically just thinking out loud here so don’t pay much attention to it.