My account is back - and me with some very private UPDATES a..

My account is back - and me with some very private UPDATES about my LOVE LIFE (that I won’t share anywhere else) 🤩❤️💦 I had to delete some old content as OF’s policies are constantly changing but I don’t think anyone will notice ;) Here’s my update for you (too private and too intimate and sensitive to be public about it, yet…) The last 6 weeks I had found myself in the most beautiful, exciting LOVE & LUST bubble with an amazing, handsome, kind and caring (much younger) man. From the moment I saw him on the beach, helping me pull my dinghy to shore, I had a massive crush on him (something I hadn’t experienced in many years). He was literally the most beautiful boy I had seen in a long time. Curly blonde brown hair, big greenish brown eyes. Sensual lips I wanted to kiss so badly. The body of a 21 year old surfer…. With all that estrogen rushing through my body, which made me extra horny, I felt like I would faint. Right into his arms ideally…. it took a few weeks of us slowly getting closer and slowly admitting our interest in each other, until we finally had sex for the first time. Again, I waited to get close to him and it was the best decision. I highly recommend everyone to wait a little to have sex for the first time. Wait until there are feelings, until the excitement and anticipation makes you go insane! Our first kiss happened when he took me out on a boatride to see the moon rise. Our first sex was under same moon and stars on the roof of my Catamaran. At that point I hadn’t been with anyone for 5 months - I was nervous and scared. But the more dominant feeling was that of pure lust. Sleeping with someone for the first time, after having been untouched for what felt years, that you are really, really into - is just the most amazing thing in the world. It is! Fireworks! Pure excitement and ecstasy. That feeling of a penis inside me, my vagina being stretched while looking into his beautiful eyes…. No words! From that moment we got closer every day, liked each other more and more and fell into a beautiful bubble of love and lust. An Ibiza romance at its finest…. And I truly deserved and needed it. Needed him to heal. Needed him to get over my break-up which I thought would take much longer. Needed him to feel beautiful and desired again. Needed him to have a sense of love and joy in my heart and wildness in my soul. I allowed myself to fall - fall in love. Allowed myself to be consumed by his masculinity, to be submissive, to be emotional and crazy. I wanted to feel it all as intensely as possible, without fear and worry about the consequences. My heart and soul (and body!!) were wide open for him. And when I realised that I would fall into the typical patterns of expectations, jealousy, possessiveness - I decided to leave. And so I left…. heartbroken but knowing that this was the right decision. Because when you open yourself so much, fall deeply in love, you will automatically want more. And I in that moment become very submissive. I want to be with that one man for the rest of my life, want him to own me, want us to merge into one being. Which is not healthy nor is it the right time for me (and definitely not for him!). So… I’m alone again (of course with my best friend @atenart by my side, never really alone), and a little sad but just so thankful for this beautiful experience. I believe he was God sent - a gift from the universe to help me find myself again. Feel sexy again. Have orgasms again…. Feel loved and feel love. And finally I will have more time for you guys and Roxysdream again as well 😉 I have one short trip to NYC booked to distract myself, hopefully get over my little romance and then I will be settling and nesting in England and connecting much more with you - answering your messages and dedicating my time to your dick ratings, coaching sessions and writing my book. That’s it, that’s my update 😄❤️ I hope you are happy for me 🫠