So I may invest in a new camera that will make me less relia..
Added 2021-12-22 16:47:00 +0000 UTCSo I may invest in a new camera that will make me less reliant on my BG partner to make content because he’s been unreliable as of late and I need to find someone more reliable. I try to hold myself to a certain standard in putting out content and I feel like I’ve been letting you all down on that since I haven’t out out any BG content in a while. I assure you, if I had access to it, I would be posting it at this very second. I’m still upset about being made to feel like the ugly third wheel a month ago. Sometimes it’s forgotten that I have feelings or that I can feel jealousy if there’s unequal treatment between me and another. That day I felt truly ugly and I am still annoyed by that. I rejected doing a GGB with her because I felt super shitty watching them passionately makeup as if I wasn’t in the room at all. GOD. As much as I would have liked to help another creator and gain her some exposure, my mental health comes first and I shouldn’t do anything that will put that at risk. I am still hesitant about spending too much money even though the camera will also be used for potentially making YouTube videos. Yes, while I can, I want to expand out to various channels and hopefully find a place where I belong. What’s good is a lot of these enterprises are not based on luck but a certain set of skills and knowledge that I will have to acquire. Thanks again to all those who attended last night’s live stream. Off to Cali now. On airplane. Ciao I forgot to say the lie: I have been to a sleepover before so I will send whoever filled that in a little something. :)
