this week has been pretty shit :/ wanna eat me out? i think ..
Added 2023-08-26 03:57:26 +0000 UTCthis week has been pretty shit :/ wanna eat me out? i think it'd help. actually... i KNOW it'd help. 🚨stop reading now if you don't want my emotions to ruin the hotness🚨 long vent about [not] chatting: idk why, but i have a huge mental block around texting. here & in my personal life. i've literally ghosted *everyone*, no matter how close we are/were... my cousin, my old nanny family, multiple friends, the guy i was talking to, my fucking dentist lol, and many more. i'm mostly telling you this is to emphasize how not personal it is. also because i feel so guilty and stressed and selfishly need to tell someone other than my therapist lmao. but ya, i can't even get myself to look at a message. idk what to do. it's fucking up my life and is so rude. makes it look like idgaf about anyone :( i make daily to do lists and it's on there everyday, but doesn't make a difference. isn't it sad that i have to put talking to the people i like on a to do list? on here, i feel especially bad for ignoring the people who've paid for something and not gotten it for months. that's so not okay. i know they think they'll never get it, but they will. and the people who've tipped me. and the people who've supported me for months/years. most of them aren't here anymore, so if you fall into any of these groups and ARE still here... thank you. i don't blame the people who aren't, but it just makes me sad. so many of my longterm subscribers who were literally friends have unsubscribed and i just can't get myself to fix it. i know people take no replies personally regardless of how many times i apologize, but that won't stop me. i'm so sorry.
