I hate that I need to post this But can some of you be a li..
Added 2020-11-15 20:00:27 +0000 UTCI hate that I need to post this
But can some of you be a little more easier on me? It’s such a struggle and a challenge to try and be happy when I see my country falling apart and more divided than ever. I’ve been having falling out with colleagues, people in this industry and my own friends. I’m dealing with career loss, money loss, business loss, the list goes on. I had to leave LA because my ideologies aren’t safe in a place such as, I’m pretty depressed seeing people leave my page because they want free stuff constantly, it’s so difficult pushing myself sometimes when I’m barely making enough to feed myself as is & keep my make up and skin looking nice. I’m not giving up but I feel close to it constantly. Days when I don’t feel this pain or energy I have strength to do what I need to do. But in reality I just want a week off where I don’t do anything, play video games and sleep. I have not received ANY government assistance during this pandemic, I’ve been barely able to pay my bills, I have friends helping me with the cost of my rent (thank god for that & a great boyfriend). I’m losing hope entirely. I don’t like to be negative on onlyfans I try to keep this a happy place. But let’s be real im fighting to stay sober when I’m depressed (I’m over 100 days sober), I cut out a lot of negative influences which was almost everyone I’ve known. I’m making content I could make way more money on selling it privately & posting it here for you all.
Just give me a break maybe an internet hug
Okay I’m done here just needed to get it off my chest
I love you all
