this is my 200th post here! wow 💚💕💚 i don't know how i’ve ma..

this is my 200th post here! wow 💚💕💚 i don't know how i’ve made so much content in just a few short months. this is a very long post ahead, if you’re into NASTY literature lol

i have over 69,000 photos on my phone. in the past three months of quarantine i’ve made more content than i think i ever have in my life. thank you for the encouragement to keep doing it.

these pics are from the Hentai and Crack video shoot, i was horny af and someone from here had just funded my first vibrator ever (!!!) so i was super excited to use it all the time. if you wanna see this whole uncensored collection of pics, tip me $20 and i’ll send it to you 💐🌸 🐈 🐱 🌸 🍒 there’s vids too ✨

i ALWAYS reward good tippers. the 6.99 gets you access into my little virtual e-sex club (and look to your heart’s content, i appreciate every single one of you sincerely💚) but the good e-daddies get the good shit and then some 💕🌸💕 spoil this sad slut and you’ll have my attention 🥰

and i’m still figuring out the whole mass messaging PPV thing but i hope to be sending naughty things to your inboxes more regularly 💕🔞🔞💕 i try to keep my timeline not as lewd as my private messages but while i’m laid up in bed and looking through my whole dirty archive i’d like to relive this horniness 🌷 horny 4lyfe

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i originally posted this yesterday but because of extreme depression and anxiety i took it down.

i was literally between crying and agonizing with food poisoning all day so i was in no condition to send anything to anyone. it can get rough as hell and i needed to remove myself. idk here it goes again lol. there seems to be this stigma across platforms where women (all humans, really) who talk about their feelings are perceived as overly emotional, when emoting is just a natural reaction to life. my desire to share mine here is to humanize me, even if i do sometimes want to be objectified like the flesh suit that i am. intellectualizing sexuality and sexualising intelligence should really be more in the mainstream - that’s why i love Stoya so much ✨🍒😍

i’ve been called a sad slut many times lol and maybe that’s not wrong. i’ve just come to embrace many of the insults thrown at me over time. there is a very interesting distinction between being objectified and being dehumanized. putting yourself out there is an act that leaves you vulnerable to both. i don’t believe objectification is inherently a bad thing. maybe i’ll write something more cohesive about this when i have less brain fog, but i do think this account already is a cohesive body of work - the medium of which of course is my body. thank you for coming to my ted talk, it’s only a matter of time before my Onlyfans University master thesis. can’t wait to get my doctorate in e-hoe studies 📚 🍎 🤓 sapiosexuals’ worst nightmare.

it can be hard to take days off because of the pressure i put on myself to make new stuff all the time. i’m a workaholic no matter what field i’m in, and i am really trying to manage that, even if it means forcibly turning my phone off and leaving it another room. literally i’ve been working in some way or another since elementary school. this is something so deeply ingrained in my subconscious, that only now am i cognizant of needing to relearn how to rest, relax, and take breaks from work. resting is extremely important and i always say it’s undervalued in our capitalist grind culture. sex work might seem easy to the perceiver but it’s a ton of work. you’re a one-woman production studio and you have to be “on” 24/7. i have to take small rest breaks because otherwise i work every single day, and my screen time runs over 10 hours each day lol which is crazy.

when i rely on this device too much it starts to really get to me. however, as it is my source of income and a way of connecting with people, it can also be truly incredible. of all the incredibly much hotter thousands of babes out there, you chose to subscribe to this one (honestly if you have the pocket$ for it, catch ‘em all). bless you pervs for peeping at my channel 💖🤓💖 i can’t believe i just typed out this stream of consciousness rant but with time at home not currently working on stuff it’s def like an introspective sexperience. i still feel like shit from the food poisoning but maybe if i’m better tomorrow i’ll make something new. no rush tho, i’ve got plenty from the vault to dose you with 💊💊💊💊

ok that will be enough of my dissertation, i’ll post some hoe shit from the archives next. if you’ve made it this far, thank you for reading ✨📚🦁✨

PS. yes bitch i did a bedazzled babussy and i would do it again