Pondering my orb … swipe to ponder my ass 🍑 🖤 Re: pondering..

Pondering my orb … swipe to ponder my ass 🍑 🖤
Re: pondering, I’ve created an outline of my project *Cyberhorny* 💕

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I dissect digital sexuality because I live it, I have been living it for years, and about sex… I got shit to say. Sexuality is going in a very interesting interactive direction which says a lot about our society and the loneliness we endure, made especially prevalent in the pandemic. Some contact online feels realer than real in a Baudrilliardian way: we’re already living in the simulation, the matrix, the world of tomorrow, today. As a disposable egirl in an oversaturated eworld I offer my perspective of this digital realm. Even the direction of my internal monologue changes when I think about being online. It’s truly some Westworld/bicameral mind shit.

To be clear, I love what I do and sex work is a personal choice. There is a lot of internalized whorephobia (from both men and women) which makes people pry into why I do the things I do, tell me things like “but you have a college degree, and have had other jobs” without knowing my full history and experiences. Sexual work has been more rewarding in many ways for me than any other “normal” / vanilla job I’ve had. I’m miserable in 9-5 conditions. I’d rather have a career I enjoy than relegate myself to a societally accepted job just for some random people to accept me for who I am not. Every type of work is exploitative under capitalism, no job is truly 100% ethical. I do my best to be as transparent as possible about how I run my page, why I do this, and what my views are. Many people don’t like personality along with porn, but here it is.

Why do I do this? My answer is quite simple: I just like it, it provides my living, and for a neurodivergent person with very little real world prospects, it is a godsend to work from home. This trifecta (of enjoyment, income, and ease) is what makes it possible for me.

*Sex work is not for the faint of heart.* But many can enjoy it, both the workers and their patrons, and I’m glad that you’re here on my page, which offers a mix of porn and personality. I realize that as a niche it’s harder for me to succeed, but I’ll take obscurity with tegridy over mass production of doing things I don’t actually enjoy. Survival sex work does sadden me, but some women have no choice. That is another topic altogether, one that shows the darkness of our society.

Greed saddens me even more, as hustling and grinding is a major value of our capitalist system. I hate that shit and I wish selflessness, emotional intelligence, and empathy were higher up on our list of value systems. If this platform ever brings me significant income, I would use it to create things that unify and compassionately educate instead of divide and misinform. I always say there’s no right or wrong way to do things, no right or wrong way to run an OF account, but I don’t play the game — therein is my problem and the reason my account objectively won’t reach those levels of success. At least I do what I can with the small platform I’m given, and if I can destigmatize sex work for even a few people, if I can shatter the perception that sex workers can’t make critiquable art, then at least I will have done something right in my efforts.

The dilDOs and dilDONT’s of existing online…..