Bound + gagged christmas angel 👼🏻 and some videos/slow mo’s ..
Added 2021-12-25 00:53:40 +0000 UTCBound + gagged christmas angel 👼🏻 and some videos/slow mo’s I almost didn’t post. My toxic, evil, Eating Disordered thinking was activated today for the first time in months maybe year+ … relapses in addiction (I would consider EDs in the same vein of mental illness as addiction) are often caused by stress, holidays often cause me stress and having to take my Carl to the vet twice this week has zapped me of my will to power. I’m feeling better now but I had a moment earlier today that was kind of scary. I was thinking that at least my dental pain will disallow me eating for the next few days/week/how long can I stretch it to lose weight. I used to be very thin, and while I am better recovered physically, my brain is not impenetrable from self hurtful thoughts, especially when under extreme stress.
This masochistic self inflicting pain process is synchronous somehow with the BDSMy shoots, although in BDSM the pain is agreed upon and logically, pleasurably inflicted with aftercare, and with mental illness it just sucks. I am channeling the principles of aftercare and what I learned in therapy to level up my evening.
This is why I am in therapy, why I invest in it, why I ask for help with it, why I advocate for it. I’ll likely do a pet bills fundraiser thing soon, I filmed some videos I’d normally describe as sexy and hot but today I’m not in the mood so I will post them and coordinate later.
Hope you enjoy these pics, what do you think of my xxmas angel?
I’m sorry if I brought down the mood💘 I promise I will be more festive after this, just let me have this emo moment 😪 might delete later … who else is having a stressful/emotionally taxing holiday? You’re not alone. I am tending to a large wounded animal. I myself am also a large wounded animal.
