I’m gonna post something much more positive and awesome toda..
Added 2022-01-04 16:33:27 +0000 UTCI’m gonna post something much more positive and awesome today: I was visited by my friend and fellow creator @katarinaishii 💖 ^o^ we got to hang out, talk, and take cute pics 💕 🌴
I was really happy that Kat visited and we got to connect about a myriad of things, she’s so cute and even got me a bunch of kawaii (and practical!) cat stuff 🥰 I got her a cat notebook and a book that I translated from Russian — she loves to read and I admire her intellectual tenacity. (She read almost 100 books last year!! :o How cool is that)
Swipe for a few videos of us talking about a bunch of random shit on my Pokémon-infested bed lol and my little couch ✨ She’s intimidatingly popular, smart, and gorgeous and her page is 🔥 so I’m super happy she likes my stuff. I loved talking to her about all kinds of topics 💕
In the video snippets we’re just talking about random stuff: life, family, OF, mental health things, Pokemon, Russian cartoons... should I post the full length wholesome videos? (one is 26 min, one is 32 min) ✨
I am going to the dentist today, please wish me luck omg 🥺🥺
Sorry about my absence yesterday, I was not in a good place. There were a lot of people (when it rains it pours and it was like all kind of happening at one) who demanded a lot from me and more than I could give, wanting “more for less” and encroaching on my boundaries, so I kind of imploded and my confidence deflated. I knew that if I stayed online I would say more stupid and toxic shit so I just took the day off. I get so self-conscious sometimes because p much all my creator friends are super popular and successful, and I consider myself a major failure in life, which my parents also always conditioned me to feel. I get triggered by a lot of irrational things and I'm sorry for being such an emotional wreck! Ngl after I made that post yesterday I logged off for the whole day, cried a lot, and took a several hour depression nap. I feel better coming back and I thank you so much if you're patient with me and kind to me. All of this is in part why I’m in therapy and working on myself.
Perhaps one day I’ll do more GG content which is more popular and lucrative — alone I know how to film myself but I get shy in front of the camera with others sometimes cause I’m afraid to look fat or hideous. I need to get over my insecurities, both mentally and physically, and it's tough. My goal is to do more sexy cute girl collabs, maybe next time we’ll do a sexy shoot ;) Enjoy the more wholesome stuff 🥰
Tip $5 or more if you want to see a video of me changing out of my clothes in front of my friend 🙈🤍
Thank you Kat for visiting me 💕
Maybe one day I’ll visit her. Also those Slowpokes kiss and it’s so adorable 💗😂 💋 💖
