Those who've seen Hentai and Crack know it's like an assembl..

Those who've seen Hentai and Crack know it's like an assembly of collages that features multiple overlays of myself. There's some computer generated imagery of dancers and furrys and stuff lol but the only human filmed in it is me. It deeply upset me that this post was removed but I can't do anything about it. I'm experiencing a little bit of grief. I don't expect anyone to agree, but to me it feels like a loss. On a deep level, this whole project was important to me and it started my entire OnlyFans -- it was one of my first posts ever, I documented its whole production on here, and it came out in May of 2020 when the pandemic was hitting so it was a source of joy, passion-following, and entertainment for me in a collectively shitty time. On a shallow level, it's also I think the only post of mine that ever got over 150 Likes and finally reached $100 tips recently so my internet ego is bummed. If you want to go Like some of my pinned posts so that they clear 100 Likes, I would appreciate that and it would bring me a little moment of joy.

Now H&C is an artwork that can't be seen anywhere xept my hard drives. I would love to show it in a gallery setting/perform a live score to it, but that would require redoing it to blur my nips. Or, I could proudly show my boobs at the pretentious gallery space. Ha that'll show them! I feel like my entire existence my whole life has been to challenge existing institutions and offer a new way of thinking without harming anyone, and offering my curses/gifts as a positive impact on a small amount of people. I would rather be a small obscure creator and make interested people think, cum, have some serotonin, see sex work differently, question authority/our society, have a thought-provoking and boner-provoking experience, than mass produce randomly churned-out shit. I still struggle to find platforms and places in the world I fit into, I really do feel alienated in most of my life. There are ways I try to transmute that into a positive from a negative. Even on OF, I try to utilize this platform in a philosophical and artistic way while still giving you the porn and interactiveness you enjoy.

I will work on responding to messages this week, they've doubled+ since yesterday which is awesomely cute cause I love the support but also kind of overwhelming so it may be a while to respond to them. The ones with a tip attached are auto pinned to the top of my inbox so I'll be lookin at those first. I'll go through everything tho, I'm not ignoring anyone I just wanna make sure I individually and personally answer as best I can 💕

I'm stress eating a bag of hot Cheetos rn so I demand compensation from OF for ruining my perfect moneymaking figure. (That's a joke)

Thanks for being here with me and being patient during this truly WTF time ... and if I haven't responded to you yet don't worry I will, I'd just rather be in a good headspace for that, and not give a shitty contrived response. Unless you want that lol? Sometimes authenticity works, sometimes it makes people uncomfortable. I'll send out a mass message with something cute 💕