Never mind lol… I posted a full length video but it flopped ..

Never mind lol… I posted a full length video but it flopped like a big flaccid penis and I deleted it. I feel kind of underappreciated. I work so hard to create content for you guys to enjoy and it sucks when my most vulnerable content fails. I just won’t post it if it’s not wanted. What is lacking in my content? Am I not as attentive as I could be? Am I really not doing enough for you?

I’ll post a new video if this reaches the goal today. You can tip any amount if you feel I’m doing a good job on my OF.

Long post ahead ….

I notice it’s often the people who don’t tip or engage with my content, who lurk and jerk or who subscribe during a big sale, who expect the most. Would you expect a bartender to give you a free drink just because you paid the cover charge? A mall to give you free clothes because you paid for parking? If only it worked like that. I didn’t build this system, this system sucks ass and I hate it, but I have to exist in it regardless. I am not a big account so I feel the effects of something like what happened with OF limiting my posts the past two weeks (probably the single most personally stressful thing I’ve experienced this year, in the top three for sure), or losing subscribers to an emotional post, harder than someone who could bounce back easily. I don’t mean to be punitive to those of you who are amazing and respectful on here, because I’m truly thankful to have great subscribers who engage with me ❤️ I’m just frustrated at the level of entitlement that some people have when there’s already oodles of porn available for free online.

I wanted to make the previous video tip campaign a something that will go towards building my own Cyberhorny website cause of all OF stress and drama, to have a separate blog with all things artistic that could host stuff like H&C and my more analytical posts. It seems people mostly want to tip the campaigns when it involves new sex toys or stuff for your pleasure. Trying to stay objective about it, your rewards are important to you and the satisfaction of my subscribers is important. But it frustrates me to no end when entitled ass people demand freebies and handouts as if online women owe them sex — this is not how this works buddy, if you want free porn look elsewhere.

I already post a huge amount of content. I post tons of videos and full length stuff which many creators of OF don’t even do, because I want you to have the best value you possibly can without compromising my integrity. When I post “how am I doing as an OF creator” and it gets a minuscule amount of tips, it’s a slap in the face to the work that I put in here. I’ll refrain from posts like that in the future because I don’t think assigning a numerical value to how I’m doing is healthy, tempting as it may be enslaved by a system that bestows achievement through numbers; in this way I become a self deprecating paragon of the very thing I hate. I could always put in less work, but I don’t want to do something like that out of spite for the people who don’t appreciate me. I like working on here. Until I personally get sick of this, I’ll continue doing what I do, but I think I am still allowed to air my grievances when I feel a certain way about certain things.

This is my job and this site is transactional. You get what You want which is getting off to my porn, and I get what I want which is to make a living. That doesn’t mean it’s not enjoyable, and honestly everything in life — every relationship, every friendship — is transactional in some way.

I don’t charge to casual chat, you can talk to me anytime — it’s only when it crosses into a territory of a sexual nature when I’ll remind you about my tip menu of services such as sexting. What’s infuriating to me is people who claim to have these posh jobs and long work hours (I’m a lawyer working 60hr workweeks) demanding my time to talk and be a source of positive support to them without any thanks or tips, as though I owe them. I don’t owe them anything. It doesn’t matter what your job is, you don’t have the right to condescend to someone like me who is in the realm of sex work as if you’re somehow “better”.

Yeah, maybe your money could be better spent elsewhere. Even if you have a seven figure salary you’re not obligated to tip me if you don’t enjoy my content or appreciate what I do here. We all have our preferences, that’s not an issue. The issue is the demand of more, more, more, and a complete disrespect and disregard of what actually goes into sex work. The perception that it’s so easy when done online. That this line of work is a cop-out. I don’t have to tell you about the myriad of posts, videos, and conversations I have debunking this.

This is why I want to buss open the industry and do my Cyberhorny project. At heart, it’s horrifying that so many people lump sex workers in with garbage and treat us as less than nothing, as not even part of society, invisible and unwanted until there is dirty use for us (I also write about this in my Planet Bimbo article from several posts ago). There is not enough humanization for this field still, and I want to be one of the people to help alter that perception. Sorry that this had to take a depressing turn and a long rant, but it’s because I’ve been feeling underappreciated. This pipsqueak of a tip goal will go towards my Cyberhorny art and website. What if I told you it was going towards a sex toy? Would more people tip then, knowing they have a novel way to jerk off? How good is it to actually be transparent as a creator?