Beauteous maiden up ahead ! 🏞🫧 Hear ye, hear ye! Oh, long w..
Added 2022-05-16 15:00:10 +0000 UTCBeauteous maiden up ahead ! 🏞🫧
Hear ye, hear ye! Oh, long winded post! Thank you so kindly for the love on my posts, the patience with me being less active at the moment, and the empathy towards my situations. I haven’t been sleeping, I get like 3~hrs a night and then feel on edge for the rest of the day, and the circumstantial stress in my life kept accumulating. I feel like the past few weeks I’ve been on the edge of a major nervous breakdown, and trying to contain it is like a full time job.
Apologies if I’m getting to messages late and not posting as much. I *will* get back to everything, but I would rather take my time with quality responses instead of feeling pressured and rushed to respond fast. My irl health comes first. In times like these, my competence and self-trust goes out the window, and I’m afraid of having interactions with people because I’ll say things that are too doomery and depressing. It’s unsexy. I’ll be sexy again soon tho, everything is temporary. This too.
Btw, you can always feel free to share if anything in your life is bothering you. My inbox is open for shit like that. I’m not a medical professional so I don’t dole out advice, but sometimes it just helps venting to someone who will listen, to some stranger on the internet, about dramas and traumas. You guys see my demonic e-tantrums all the time, so don’t feel bad about emotionally unloading if it’s really needed.
Good news: I do have plans for beautiful content this week when I am feeling a bit more functional, and am delighted to show you this photo dump of ye olde Renaissance Pleasure Faire! 🧚‍♀️ 🤍🏰
I hope you enjoy my sfw pics with no nudity. The video with the changing outfits has some nudity tho ( ^ω^ )
It’s been a while since I got out into the world.
Honestly I get anxiety when I’m photographed by someone who’s not me because I always look fat in the pictures. I know “my angles” so I can capture my body in a flattering way; through someone else’s lens I feel fat. The angles are all wrong. But I don’t get photographed often and my outfit was really cute, so these will have to do. I can’t stand looking at them, but I know other people would be delighted. It’s some fucked up mental gymnastics but whatever. This shouldn’t be a problem, but when I’m stressed out, sleepless, restless, I get irritable. I hate feeling this way. Again, I am working on it and I will try to sleep.
How do you guys sleep? Do you have insomnia issues and if so, how do you deal with it? Cause I know 2-4 hrs a night is horrible not just psychologically but physically as well — you age faster, have dark circles and sallow skin, and embody an appearance of slow decay.
Keeping up a facade of happiness and sexiness takes more effort than you may think. It’s so easy to be like “positive vibes” “just be happy” “just do yoga and eat healthy” but when you have complex traumas and psychological conditions, it’s not that easy. You can do all of those things and more, and still exist in a state of daily suffering. It’s 24/7 of contending with intrusive thoughts, hypervigilance, subtle changes in medication, and trial+error of rearranging your routine to make any, just any small part, of your life a little bit more comfortable. I know I am far from the only person who struggles with things like this, and other content creators do too. The women who make your smut have deep internal lives sometimes filled with pain. Likewise, I aim to humanize my subscribers too, because the parasocial aspect of this goes both ways. Y’all are people with lives, jobs, routines, feelings, preferences, pets, responsibilities, struggles, joys. It’s important to address our humanity, the agony and the ecstasy, the wonderful pleasure and enduring misery of it all.
I will show you a preview: I launched my website for my Cyberhorny project.
đź’– https://cyber-horny.com đź’–
Much more to come soon but check it out and lmk what you think! Thine elven maiden wishes thee a lovely Monday, a lovely week, and a happy mood đź’–đź’•
