These past few days was just .... uuuuuuuuu -_- intense A l..

These past few days was just .... uuuuuuuuu -_- intense

A lot of good things have been happening actually with my art and writing 🪐 I've been making a ton of progress on Cyberhorny, getting a team working thing going and being on track to finish a draft of the book soon and possibly print some copies this year, which is so fantastic, would be literally a dream come true .. all the time and energy I have spent creating this Cyberhorny document will come to fruition ! 🌙 And I am SO thankful to you sweethearts on my OF who support my art as well as my porn, that means the world to me!! 💕

But rn my mental health is so frazzled idk

I found out a parasocial internet friend of mine who I never met but knew through animal rescues ended her life, and it breaks my heart. It's crazy how people we never encounter irl beyond the screen can impact us deeply. Her family will run her successful and thriving rescue business but never be the same again. Animal care, health care, any work we do for other people, tends to neglect one major factor -- the practitioners self care. I lost a creative irl collaborator last year this way too, it's heart breaking. When I studied reiki I learned that in doing healing modalities there is the healers' journey dilemma, (the last pic in this post) where often very wounded people will absorb the burdens of others but allow their own pain to reach unimaginable thresholds until they can no longer fight it. I think it scared me the commonalities I shared with her.

I tend to experience this a lot too, neglecting my own mind and body. I decided to do some self care today and went to go get a massage, but the masseuse guy was super weird and would not stop massaging my thighs despite me telling him "don't massage my legs, only feet" ; and when I said he was using too much pressure he kept using the same or more, so I made it known that I wanted to stop this early. I told the management in a cordial way, objectively telling them I was uncomfortable by the unprofessionalism, also telling them this was the worst massage I ever had, but all they said was they'd 'look into it' and I can get a discount on my next service. Like wtf??? I am not coming back there!!!! Dude !!! I understand that not ever therapist is a fuckin freak but like why would I re-frequent a place where I was made uncomfortable?? Wtf is with people who do not understand basic boundaries !!!

Anyway this is just like a one day campaign so I can try to book a therapy session this week and actually get a chance to talk about this w someone who is qualified to heal and who I trust. I'm gonna be social w friends this week too cause it really helps.

If anyone wants to tip whatever amount to help w therapy I’ll be really thankful.

Sorry for the eternal ranting on my page, this is why this campaign is just temporary until I post hot spicy new stuff 🔥🔥 I will post new content tomorrow pls be patient w me <.< Ugh it just sucks, some days are just like not the day and I feel so overwhelmed. On the bright side tho yesss my art stuff is going really well and I'm excited to share when ready. This will probably be unrealistic to reach this goal in a day but whatever even if it doesn't get any tips idc I just need to vent 😵 Thank you, sorry, aaaa have a sweet day and be safe and know I love y'all 🙇‍♀️🥺 Check on your friends even the strong and funny charismatic ones who seem like they're thriving❤️