We live in a world and grow up in a world where we are bomba..

We live in a world and grow up in a world where we are bombarded with unrealistic expectations, images of the human form (the body) and love. We spend more time trying to find something outside of us or someone then we do building a bond with ourselves and respect for ourselves. We spend more time desiring another than we do desiring ourselves. We spend more time hiding our life and bodies than we do uncovering and discovering them. Most of us know that nobody can complete us, only we have that power. The answers we are looking for are within us. Most of us know that our looks, our weight, the numbers, our physical form will always change and that is not what keeps lasting happiness. However most of us still move timidly and shyly or judgingly in the direction of freedom for the messages that remind us that we are our bodies and our bodies are not worthy enough. And all the words we lose our self love with are generally not our words, they are the words of the world and others that drown out our own words of love, respect and kindness that makes us feel at home in our bodies. This is me - unedited, no makeup and in the middle of my training and filming for more videos for my workouts and yoga on P@treon. My muscles do not reflect my beauty. They reflect my body's movement patterns. My wrinkles and red skin do not reflect my beauty. They reflect a life and body I am living in and with. My body does not tell you about my life, my hard work, my challenges or my heart aches, nor does it show you I'm beautiful or not. My body simply is my home that I share my life physically with the world. This is all I have and the only body I was given to do so. I did not choose it. However I can design it and make it work for me and with me by what I do each day with my mind, body and soul and put in it. My body does not show the hate that is given to me every day for sharing who I am or just simply being human. My body does not show the love that is shared with me that keeps me going on the days I struggle. My body is simply a vessel that is a reflection of my genetics, my life and parts of my inner thoughts but not all. However the truth is with energy and self love there is no filter for these - self love and energy are what truly matter. Developing a stronger bond with ourselves is a lifetime goal. We need to learn to feel our own bodies and the heat of desire from wanting to experience all they give and have to offer us. We want to spill out from our clothes not for the world or others but for the kind of love for ourselves that we often want to feel with another. Self love is transcending, it moves us to another realm. However, to move forward out of our fears and limitations we must learn to want to love our own home so deeply that it is intoxicating. We enter the spiritual existence not through being body positivity or confident or sharing or not. It is about simply accepting who we are and owning it every moment. That does not have a look, it is a feel. It does not come from achieving something or being something more, it comes from being here and now as we are unapologetically sitting with it all. It is a process that starts off by going gently into the world of self love and energy and moving to a place of rough fierce desire to experience it all over time. Our eye contact is strong with ourselves not others, our bodies open, legs spread, arms wide, bodies free taking it all in, this experience of life for us. Our fingers grasping, feeling and rippling across the ocean of skin we see with acceptance…from our soul being touched by the tip of our own self love and kind energy. So we come out of this room, this experience, this moment, this life a different person then the one the world, others, expectations and life curate for us. We come out of this being who we were always meant to be.