I had a moment recently that I’m reflecting on and wanted to..
Added 2024-07-06 03:31:47 +0000 UTCI had a moment recently that I’m reflecting on and wanted to share.
I met one of my sister’s friend’s the other day for the first time. he was a super nice guy, we had great banter. after sharing the details of our lives with each other, he asked me, “so what do you see yourself doing in, let’s say, 5 years?”
my answer was “I just want to be free from any kind of chains, feel happy, and travel”
while he gave me the nod of approval on the first part of my answer, he replied “that’s it? just travel?”
I felt myself tense up a bit while the feeling of self consciousness crept in. is there something wrong with my lack of a clear plan for the future?
I think in this industry, there’s a lot more curiosity behind what “the bigger picture” is: am I planning to be a sex worker for the rest of my life or is this the stepping stone to some other great thing in my life?
the truth is, I really don’t know where I’ll be in 5 years. I barely know where I’ll be next month😂 all I know is that above anything else, I want to be happy. and so far, I can confidently say that I’ve done a damn good job of maintaining that
while I do believe that having a direction in life is a good thing, I also believe that holding ourselves to specific expectations can lead to disappointment and resentment of ourselves. no one knows what the future holds, let’s just flow and allow ourselves joy through the journey🦋
