So this video is a lot longer than I meant for it to be. I t..
Added 2022-02-24 18:51:35 +0000 UTCSo this video is a lot longer than I meant for it to be. I tried editing it down and cut out a few cutscenes but CL4P-TP talks so much -_- I guess this is kind of like an update of what's going on with me, how I'm going to try to move forward, and what I'm hoping/planning on doing in the future. Also some ranting. I was very vulnerable. It's very long, I don't expect you guys to watch all of it. I guess a tl/dw would be that I'm stressed over family/health on top of job insecurity, feeling like there's no real future for me, and coming to the realization that I will probably never have the things I wanted (family, home ownership, retirement, etc). It leaves me feeling unsexy, gives me daily panic attacks, and makes creating sexual content really hard. I could fake it but I don't want to add to the already massive amounts of porn that's faked already out there. I'm going to try to ease up on the crazy amount of pressure I put on myself and do something small each day until I'm back where I want to be.
